psychobabble

I received an sms early (or not too early) this morning that really made me think.

I have to admit that I have a bad habit of putting my foot in my mouth, especially when I’m not in the best of moods. I don’t know why I chose to speak last night when frankly, the entire evening, I didn’t feel like speaking at all. I suppose that’s why they say sometimes you should just hold your tongue.

Thanks to my impulsiveness, I might have intentionally offended someone.

The problem with me really is that there are many occasions where I shoot my mouth off before my brain has time to censor it and last night was one occasion where I might not have used my brain at all. I didn’t say things I meant to say and the ones I did came out all wrong and became easily misconstrued. No, I’m not blaming anyone for this, it’s my own fault. Perhaps I should have done what I felt like all day – not talking at all. Maybe there was a reason why I didn’t feel like talking in the afternoon. Perhaps I did not heed His warning that my tongue would hurt someone or cause someone emotional distress.

Anyway, I know you don’t read my blog but, S, I’m really sorry about it. It was none of my business and I should not have added my twocentsworth. For the record, I truly did not mean for it to sound like I was dictating things.

I meant to say that you were a gift to him.
However, upon reflecting, I realize that it never really came up.. Big mistake on my part.

It could be because I was in a bad mood all day.
It could be that I thought if I could cheer you up, I’d cheer myself up (although reflectively, what I said would not have cheered a soul up! So pessimistic, I was).
It could be because I’m just too bloody kaypo.
Or it could be because I should just learn to shut up.

Two friends bought me a shirt that read,

“Be patient with me, for God is still working on me” (Isaiah, 64:8).

He is still at work with me. I have many flaws that I have to perfect. Many imperfections I have to smooth over.
We’re not perfect. But I should try to be.

I appreciate you telling me about this. Most people would just [quote] “have trashy thoughts” [unquote] about me.
I’m truly humbled by this experience and I’m so very, very sorry.

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